the harder that i try.........
the harder and harder it seems...
to tell you how i really feel about you
everything in my life isnt all thats its hyped up to be..
yes i have amazing friends......
a great boy....
a loving family...
but
somehow there is a part of me that has been missing...
how long has it been gone?
"when did u first realize that a
part of you was missing?" honestly..........
I wish i knew......
2 years? maybe 3? forever and an eternity?
who knows......but all i know
is that the part of me that is missing hasnt been found yet
who is willing?
who is the "lucky soulmate"..............
that will search into my soul?
to find the part of me thats been missing
for so long?
who is willing to protect me?
save me from all my miseries........? my worries?
........my nightmares?
to "put/piece together" this salvaged heart?
and make it work like new again?
who is willing?
to make me smile?
make promises and keep them?
forever and an eternity keep me happy?
inspire me to be great.......to never give up on me?
so.....
who is willing?
you say you would die for me........
take a bullet for me?
well.......
then why did u hurt me this way?
why did u leave me?
when i needed you the most.........
why did u leave me alone?...... to be hurt
to be broken and shattered by all your bullshit lies
and relentless words?
words that will forever haunt me...
you broke my heart...
so now its my turn
my turn.....to show you how it felt to have nobody....
to have no one there..... to pick u up
when your down.....
to silence the tears that silently fall down ur angelic face
its my turn......
its time you looked into my hazel eyes
and saw for yourself......
the person that i have become.....
its time i say goodbye
and watch you drown in sorrow
its better this way...
dont you see?
the more and more I talk to you.....
the more and more its so hard
to let you go.....
but...
I have to go......
its time i spread my wings and fly
time for me to move on with my life..
to be a better person
and most of all...
to forget the pain and sorrow
that you have caused me...
im sorry...
Subject: words that led to nowhere 
4/1/2009, 1:27 am
